1/11/11 -Thadeus

Extreme thirst woke me up at dawn and to my great vexation I had to get up and gulp a mouthful of H20, otherwise it would be futile slumber. The idea was to get down from my room and, into the kitchen in total darkness and let my instinct lead on. I usually do that but for some reason I stopped midway and turn the lights on. Today is the day of the DEAD, I don't think I'd risk bumping into something that shouldn't be there. Times like this I am really good at self consternation. Had I not witnessed and felt this "third being" or those from another dimension on several occasion in the past, I would just have shrugged it off.
Back to bed and it's warmth I instinctively checked my CP, which I normally don't. It brings good news! I received a text from my brother that he is now the proud father to his lil bundle of Joy. Second baby boy in the family born Nov 1 (interesting date indeed!). It will be good to see another little one in a months' time.
There goes the time it is now 5 AM, don't think I could get back for a decent keep, I might as well get up and be fruitful.

Timeless

I had been chatting on my mobile with an old friend, thankfully this time we managed to have a decent and lengthy conversation amidst the hustle and bustle that Oxford circus brings. The last time we saw each other was over 2 years ago. She is endearingly sweet and has never wavered her demeanor in life. We have a lot of catching up to do. I hope that our plans to meet up will soon materialise. I am however entirely reliant to my colleague for her to give up her annual leave for me (fingers crossed) on that particular date, in the meantime it is a waiting game until Friday am afraid. It will also be grand to see old faces from QE in case I get to attend the 11th Anniversary of our group.

Ageing

The last time I saw my reading glasses was a month ago prior to Milan trip. Had I not been feeling its devoidness in my daily existence, I would not have even bothered to look for it. I could no longer manage the discomfort it brings every time I am in front of the computer without my reading glasses. I don't know if am the only one who experiences this, sometimes I look for lost things everywhere, in vain, I could not find it. It is like someone (?ghost?) is toying with me. I was even worried that I might have lost it. It would cost me another several hundred bucks to get a new one which is the last thing I'd spend on especially with the expensive holiday season inevitably looming. Well, it took me almost a week before it chose to be found. Ironically it was inside one of my G bag. I was happy to be reunited with it.
I hope dementia is not yet knocking on my door

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Who would believe that we are in a state of recession?

I did a bit of window shopping after my useless one to one Apol appointment. I went around to usual shops in oxford circus. Lo and behold I saw this stand. I patronise this brand, however I was slightly disappointed that their new silver sterling jewelries were distinctively similar to that of Tiffany's designs! Hmmmn hands down, I would without a doubt go for the T. They are not a pioneer for nuffing naught methinks.

wishful thinking

Would you not love it if the tube is always like this?

Flashback

The place where I used to "Zen" when I need to recharge my battery.

From the vault of wisdom. Way back I used to sojourn here from dawn till dusk when I had to cram for my essays. I have not visited this place for a while. I was happy here.

Jab

Today I had my flu jab. My arm still aches. My head aches (lack of sleep = 125 minutes dwell). My tummy ached, gastrocoat to the rescue thanks to Carol. Lesson Learned: Double the dose of Brufen to take the pain away. Side Effects: Live with acceptance and lower down ones expectations.

Cylon

So, when I go for holiday in LU (La Union), I would also be looking after my 2 year old nephew. It will be a daunting task as thanks to Skype I had seen him on several occasion belt out deafening tantrums, the longest was 45 minutes. I swear if I was in the same room with him my white matter would have bled and poured down my damaged eardrums. Will I have the will and patience to nurture and care for this little tike? I have to confess that I have not seen him since he was 6 months old. I do wonder though if he remembers me as I used to lull him when I'd held him in my arms looooong time ago. Thanks to the wonders of technology I was able to see him grow and I have to say he has mastered the art of amusing us by pulling sorts of funny faces. He gives us immeasurable joy and boy does he know how to milk it! I think the first thing I will do when I see him is hug him very tight and shower him with sloppy smooches.

To do list

I have decided that come next year I will keep myself busy and start off by attending two months course on art lesson in portraiture painting. I have been forever meaning to give this great passion of mine a chance in honing and really take my drawing skills to "that level". Being an ant in this world, part of my daily chore is answering endless phone calls

( I might as well be in a call centre somewhere out there) and lately whilst cradling the phone I seem to be unconsciously filling the post it notes with scribbles and doodles. Only later on will I notice that my colleague have written a comment below my drawing. Well, she is a fellow capricorn so we gel. The good thing is I have amassed heaps of drawing stuffs waiting to be used. But for now I need to book this photography course to keep me amused.

Pining

Things that I miss on a Wednesdays hobnob.

and of course Orange Wednesday! Well, not to be compared with "Miss Havisham Effect".

The look.

Monday morning can be a repertoire of disgruntled madness and stress especially when everyone wants a piece of you at once. So as usual my face evokes what I feel when I mean business and my eyes clearly says it. Picture this : " I am not in the mood for chit chat conversation" would be the get up look. So for now I can only apologise to those unsuspecting souls that chance upon me during these Cruela DaVille moments. I clearly need to tone this down, work on it be congenial and smize (word borrowed from Tyra Banks) . For those who know me, can you picture me being dewy and charming?

I was reading a blog about friendship and it dawned to me that as you grow older close friends tends to come far and few. I get drawn to others who I get along with, has the same vibes or that we simply click. Friendship for me is a reciprocal relationship, it cannot survive in one direction alone. I guess one should not expect so much from others as we tend to lead our own daily busy lives. But it's good to receive once in a while a simple text or email of "hey are you okay?" or even an invite for a catch up, that to me makes a big difference. Is that too much to ask?

The sound of silence

enroute to work for once I was relishing the silence aboard the overground train and I guess the rest of the peeps were enjoying it too. Well, until this megasound came blasting from where else but a mobile phone to the tune of James Bond ringing tone of the not so James Bond looking bloke. And then the guy spoke " heeelo?, where are you man?" That definitely spoiled the fun! I could not help but hide my smirk and laughed silently. Namaaan asan ba kasi si Sir James Bond!!!

Duvet

Hay naku my most dreaded season is back with a vengeance! Di man lamang dinahan dahan ng konti. If I were to have my way eh makikapagmatigasan ako quese joda na mafrost bite ang mga galamay ko sa lamig! It feels grand to defy this looming kinda depressing weather by wearing seda instead of cashmere, kaya lang di talaga kaya ng powers ko. I guess it's time to start wearing winter apparels again na feeling ko size 20 ako sa laki sheeeez!

This too shall fade.

Aplaya

I miss this place.

Hmmmn.

Right, so it's been a long time since I have done this thing called pouring of my thoughts in words. Feeling ko tuloy balik sa pag ka teenager na mala "Dear Diary" ang tema.  Only this time mas hi tech, kerchiiing!
I must say inenganyo ako ni Cipriano at nagpaenganyo naman ako, this is fun!